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| dangthere are so many bratty ppl that don't have any common courtesy.
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| trashtalkers...trashtalkers, backstabbers, random bull... wtheck its all so unnecessary and ridiculous. why do ppl just make up stuff -_- lame. get a life seriously. i dont wanna be dragged into your drama.
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| wow..so it's been fooreverrr... well i started off this summer being sick.. i got the flu and i quit summer school cuz too many days absent.. missing one day is like missing 1 week in normal school. so no way i can make that up.
i was dead again. just like a few years ago.. gosh i really don't know whats wrong with my mind or the meds the stupid doctors always give me with their stupid side effects. it's really strange.. how my mind worked.
i couldnt think properly watsoever. i'd predict everything and theyd be right and i'd be surprised or osmething. its so freakishly weird. and it's a really weird and empty feeling. its so impossible to explain i dont even know. anything that happens i wouldnt react to it at all. like how my brother came back. i was just like oh cool. and really emotionless. fjewapfaejw its so weird. and it bothers the heck out of me.
well i'm all better now and stuff but just during that whole time i just acted so weirdly. one day in drivers ed i got "sent home" cuz i didnt bring a notebook and the teacher scolded me and i just sat throuhg it. and like i listened but it like literally went in the ear and out the other. and during that time i was thinking "is this really happening? im about to get kicked out cuz i didnt bring a notebook... okay..." and if i were *normal* i would be like freaking out and reacting like wtheck? this is stupid or something but i just accepted it so easily and walked out of class. and told my mom knowing she'd get mad and stuff but not caring
all i would think about is sleeping. i want to sleep i want to sleep and all i did for 2? weeks was sleep. i would go home and sleep for like forever. and my mind was just so messed up.
yeah.. i'm definitely not explaining it correctly at all. i just cant put them into words
i'm so glad i'm back to normal. but its different this time. my mind gradually began to function better. there were times where i thought normally and times where i didnt' and it was just really weird. but last time i snapped back to normal INSTANTLY and everything hit me all the sudden.. and it was just INSANE. i'm so lucky this is during the summer because if this happened at school.. omg i would have F's in all my classes cuz i couldnt' pay attention, function properly, nor act normally.
the mind is just so complicatedd! i really want to find out why this happens to me whenever i take weird meds or whenever i get REALLY sick. i get more mentally sick than physically sick.
this is exactly why i want to be a psychologist/psychiatrist or at least study it.
okay so no more summer school (its finally hit me. and its been over 2 weeks)
drivers ed tomorrow 2 hours early to make up the day i got "kicked out"
testmasters...
ugh test masters is so boringgg and i still dont have the book -_- apparently i was absent the day they gave it to us. cuz i was sick. i definitely dont remember that
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| summer schedulelamar summer school 7-2
drivers ed 4-6 monday, wednesday, thursday, friday
tuesdays day shift*
testmasters 10-2 saturday 6-9 sunday and tuesday
Oh father!
Well i am ready!
Won't you let it begin?
Cause i am here now!
I want to dance in,
The mighty palm of your hand!
Paramore - Let the Flames Begin
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| VENTING AGAINok so xanga has officially been my venting site
i havent updated so here goes:
FINALS WEEK
FRIDAY was CHEM AND ENGLISH! worst day ever. so i studied my BUTT OFF for 6+ hours on chem. i even had my neighbor tutor me and everything. so cuz of chem i only got to study for english for an hour so i failed that like automatically. and when i took the chem test i thought it was so easy. and i check my grade.
62
WTF? WTHECK IS THAT?! 62 in englihs i totally understnad but CHEM? I STUDIED SO HARD FOR IT! i even thought it was easy! AND THEN my friend that didnt study like at all got a 74 which really irks me cuz she knew less than i did
and for enlgish apparently we can donate books for 10 points each and i didnt know it was a maximum of 5. so i donated 11 books and if i wouldve known i couldve just sold 6 books to freshmen and make some profit. at least $50!!! FJAWPFEIJAPIE oh well i'm selling my syntax notebook for 20 all that hard work.. hahahha
and then there was the world history test. which is like impossible to study for? so i was pretty sure i'd fail it but wat bothered me even more was that STANDIFORD gave EVERYONE ANSWERS TO THE FINAL! 70% of her students got 100. WTHECK! THATS SO NOT FAIR. SHE IS THE MOST LENIENT ONE AND SHE GOT THE 10 EXTRA CREDIT POINTS FROM THAT STUPID POSTER MOSAIC THING AND SHE TOTALLY CHEATED. SHE WENT OFF IN THE MIDDLE OF CLASS TO TARGET TO GET SUPPLIES AND SHE HAD FRESHMEN DOING ALL THE WORK! WTHECK THEY GET THE 10 POINTS AND THE FREAKING ANSWERS WTF AND PEEK WORKS US SO HARD AND WE DIDNT GET ANY HELP AT ALL
and my mom just pissed me off earlier so i'm just in a really bad mood.
and why are there so many cockroaches? fjeawpfjawe'
well the good news is i totally wrecked the algebra2 final. that test was so easy. thank GOD!
oh ya alot has happened since the last time i updated... wooow. there was pop show, ap exams, and alot of other stuff i cant remember. i pulled my first official all nighter (for school) 2 days before the exam. and btw the 5 hour energy drink thingies dont really work. they work for like the first 2 hours and then they die and ure back to being sleepy. but there isn't a crash so thats good
i have never been this ready for summer. it's ridiculous. i'm counting down hours and minutes. i seriously canNOT wait for it. even though my summer is hectic and still will be school based. NO MORE MR FELIX NO MORE CHEMISTRY NO MORE MS PRICE NO MORE WORLD HISTORY!! HALLELUJAH
i have testmasters, drivers ed, summer school, volunteering, tutoring/working, camps. thats aloooot amazing how i managed to squeeze that in my schedule... and then theres summer hwk.. uugh. im gunna actually start it really early. ya i know i said that last year but i really will do it this time. ive proved to myself this sophomore year that ive overcome procrastination. i start my work when i get my work. thats wat whap teaches you at bellaire
heres my schedule next year (hopefully)
chink 3
choir
dance
ap stats
ap eng 3
bcis
apush
this summer i'm taking precal health and speech. hooray.
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